Written some years ago during a shamanic trance as the spirits try to explain the beginnings of my transformation to shaman ... enjoy!

In The Beginning

THE THIRD INGREDIENT YOU SEEK WHITE GOLD IS LIFE.

YES WRITE IT DOWN AS IT COMES.

YOU SEEK LIFE, OR GOD. EITHER WAY IT CREATES THE SAME.

THESE ARE YOUR THREE INGREDIENTS WHITE GOLD.

RE-MEMBER THIS : LIFE (GOD), LOVE (LIGHT), TRUTH (WORD).

THE TRUTH OF ALL CREATION.

Why am I being told this now?

IS THERE ANY OTHER TIME?

Not from my understanding, no!

But this is not everyone else's understanding.

IF IT IS YOUR UNDERSTANDING WHITE GOLD IT HAS TO BE EVERYONE ELSE'S UNDERSTANDING, RIGHT?

Again, this is my understanding. But why do people not understand everything the same way?

WE HAVE EXPLAINED THIS TO YOU. I HAVE EXPLAINED THIS TO YOU. YOU HAVE EXPLAINED THIS TO YOU.

So what triggers the awakening?

Hang on there for a minute, you're back to this ' WE ARE ALL ONE' syndrome again. I do understand this quite well now I believe. But for the benefit of others, again, you run through this part, how you would explain it to me.

YOU ARE TESTING US WHITE GOLD, A GOOD ATTEMPT.

SO AGAIN YOU ARE SITTING THERE WONDERING WHOM THIS IS.

OK, SLOWLY FOR YOUR BENEFIT.

WE ARE INDEED ALL ONE. OR, IFYOU PREFER IN DEED TO ONE ANOTHER. A FRIEND IN NEED IS A FRIEND IN DEED.

Ah ! but as I understand things, need does not come into it. Need is but an illusion.

YES IN DEED IT IS.

A FRIEND IN DEED IS BUT AN ILLUSION.

A FRIEND IN NEED IS BUT AN ILLUSION.

So what you are saying is, 'we are, in illusion, all one'. I do not understand this at all.

That makes no sense to me whatsoever.

EVERYTHING IS AN ILLUSION FOR YOU. CREATED BY YOU, FOR YOU.

CREATED BY US FOR US, CREATED BY ME FOR ME. WITHOUT THE ILLUSION HOW COULD WE BE. LIFE IS THAT ILLUSION. A FUSION OF THE ILLUSION.

Listen, I do not mean to be rude or anything but your talking crap mate.

THEN IF WE ARE THEN YOU ARE.

Ok, got me with that one. I know how you are doing this now. You make things as confusing as possible for everyone, and me, and then lay the blame squarely back at my door. Because, it is me that is writing this not you.

WE ARE ALL WRITING THIS.

AND WE SEEK NOT TO BLAME ANYONE. SO WHY BLAME YOURSELF, YOU ARE NOT TO BLAME, WE ALL ARE TO BLAME. AND WHAT IS BLAME?

As I understand it blame is a fault.

AND YOU BELIEVE THAT IT HAS TO BE SOMEONE'S FAULT TO DO THIS. THERE IS NO FAULT IN LIFE. LIFE IS PERFECTION ITSELF. IT JUST DEPENDS HOW YOU WANT TO EXPERIENCE IT, INTER-ACT WITH IT. YOU'RE ALL A BUNCH OF ACTORS. ACTING OUT EVERY PART OF LIFE ITSELF. BUT I TELL YOU THIS, THIS IS THE BIGGEST GRANDEST PRODUCTION YOU COULD EVER HOPE FOR. LIFE IS IN-DEED A STAGE. A STAGE IN YOUR EVOLUTION. LOOK NOT FOR IMPERFECTIONS, SEEK NO FAULTS, LOOK TO BLAME NOTHING. FOR IF YOU SEEK THESE THINGS, YOU WILL NOT FIND THEM IN THE GREATER PLAN. THESE THINGS DO NOT EXISTS. THE SOONER YOU ACCEPT ONE-NESS THE SOONER YOU ACCEPT BEING. BEING A PART OF THE GREATEST SHOW ON EARTH!!

This does not explain 'WE ARE ALL ONE'

IT DOESN'T?

No! well I do not think it does anyway.

GOOD, DO NOT THINK OF IT, KNOW IT, FOR YOU KNOW EVERYTHING THERE IS TO KNOW.

No I bloody don't. I do not even profess to know everything.

YOU KNOW OF LOVE?

Yes

YOU KNOW OF TRUTH?

Yes

YOU KNOW OF LIFE?

Yes

THEN YOU KNOW EVERYTHING THERE IS TO KNOW. YOU KNOW EVERYTHING YOU NEED TO KNOW. YOU KNOW EVERYTHING THAT IS NECESSARY FOR LIFE HIMSELF.

Whoever this is, your getting awfully clever.

AND WHEN YOU GET ALL OF THIS YOU WILL BE FULLY IN AWE OF YOURSELF.

This conversation has gone way off base here. I thought we were supposed to be talking about the beginning.